I can still feel the rough sand from the Santa Maria cove's beach running through my fingers. It is perfect: not too sticky and not too loose . Even the salty taste of waters lingers in my mouth, and the stars wink at me. If so, am I still there? If I remember every detail and can tell you the all the colors and the words that were said on the boat or the windy deck of the ship, is it possible to say that a part of my spirit still hasn't left the cruise? A part of me belongs there. I am not forcing myself to remember the trip, nor am I trying hard to forget. The memories will simply stay forever with me. So will that part of my soul ever let go?

Recently I started school including a philosophy class. One of the many questions in philosophy deals with existence. So I want to make a philosophical claim that whatever place or situation that you can clearly envision must be in fact real and not just the pigment of your imagination. This vivid memory I think, is even possible to visit spiritually. However no one has the power to change it by spiritually visiting it. How valid do you think this is? What do you think?

"I am back with my ex" sounds strange from the side. Many people will say, "Oh, it's another one of those" and I am guessing what they really think: that won't last.

After he left I never regreted a single moment I spent with him (7 months). I have always thought he was my first real love. As time went on I learned to convince myself that we weren't for each other by looking at him from another angle, seeing just all his bad qualities. But for some reason I never coould delete the messages I saved or to throw away the poems. The next guy that I accidentally met with was simply too empty compared with my ex, devoid of a personality even. It wasn't a two way relationship and it only lasted as long as 8 months because of his promises.

I don't know if I'll ever know why he broke up with me, maybe this break was meant to be. And honestly it feels so good to slip back into something familiar, like puting on slippers lol. I finally feel calm about the whole love thing. =)

So yeah several things have been going on lately. Well obviously, since life doesn't just stop, for me at least.

I made yet another website for my art but this time I am sure I like it. The thing is that I had trouble finding a website from which I could post a lot of writing as well as pictures for the same project. It was easy to do on wix.com. And also it's a flash website which has an elegand look to it. The only downside is that people can't leave comments on it but there's always my email.

http://www.wix.com/coconutdusha/artofkira

comments are always welcome

Lately I've been in love with the song Hay Amores by Shakira from the movie Love in the Time of Cholera. Sounds romantic doesn't it? And dangerous at the same time. There's a book too which I can't wait to read and then watch the movie. I usually don't read by the way. Only for school. I am currently learning the lyrics and will sing it in my Spanish class in which people don't speak in Spanish too often. Only if they are told too.

This is a quote from the song: "Hay amores que se vuelven resistentes a los años, como el vino que mejora con los años," It means: "There exhists a kind of love that after years returns only stronger, like the wine that gets better with years."  Sorry if this is not the best translation but it's so deep and I think it's true for my love.